Has anyone come back from travelling recently or in the past and feeling like you have come back down to earth with a bump? Sorry to sound depressing, just feel really down.. .. ..Finding it really hard to get out of. I'm at home now, and feel like the 6 years I have been away at uni and abroad never happened now I feel like the same old unconfident girl I was 7 years ago, unable to get a job. I can't seem to be able to talk to people without getting all flustered this has never happened before, speaking to people on the phone my heart is racing and I can't get my words out. It makes me wonder how I will ever get a job when all I am is a blumbering mess. I don't know what is wrong with me and I know I'm lucky to be at home with afamily who loves me and I don't live in poverty, but feel really down. I split up with my boyfriend whom I had been with for 3 years, because I can't tell my parents about him, because they wouldn't approve of our relationship, a race thing, I don't want to cause upset to my family. I feel weak and pathetic for not being able to tell them, thought I would have felt better making a decision, but now I've lost my best friend. I don't talk to anyone all day, I don't have any friends here. I 've got to the point where I'm feeling so low I just can't bring myself out of it.. .. ..I don't know what to doI want to be successful, I keep hearing about so and so living in London with great jobs, starting salary of £19,000. Here I am 24 applying for school leavers jobs and can't even get them.. .. .. ..does anyone want to wallow in my misery.. .. ..I'm sorry, all this has been building up inside of me and I just had to get it out, I know, I know I am lucky having seen so much unhappiness in the world, but when you are in this country, you can't help but seem to get caught up in it's misery. The weather doesn't help either.. .. ..someone please shout at me and tell me to get a grip on myself.. .. .. .. .